being better

Quotes like these are tiny bites of inspiration. Really quick jolts that speak to my heart's intent but finding true and lasting inspiration is hard, because life is truly hard. It's a constant battle, and I'm starting to understand it's a battle for everyone. We all share feelings of heartache, guilt, stress, insecurity, self-loathing, and as a friend recently put it, we just have to learn to manage our emotions. In our conversation, it also seemed clearer that those who inspire us fight their battle gracefully.

It's an ideal I wish for myself, and I sometimes forget that, like everything good and right, it will be hard. I tend to beat myself up over not immediately being that way, and I turn out to be the only person that stands in the way of my own happiness. Every day I have to work on becoming better than the day before.

And in the midst of all these hardships and obstacles I sometimes create for myself, there are people who love me - my family, friends, Atticus who is the sweetest kid I know, and my love Dirk who places my happiness above his. I've been blessed with enormous opportunities. I have so many good things in my life it's crazy, but moments good or bad I'm most grateful I have people who want to share it with me. 

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I have never been as open before on the blog. I'm clinching in nervousness. It's quite a detour from the text I intended for this photo. It was more like architecture will always be part of my passion and please pray for me as I take my last few exams this year to finally be a licensed architect. By the way, I can't stop looking at those stairs and seeing it as a perfect spot to photograph someone for a style session!